Thankfulness for Encouragement
What a turn around from yesterday’s glass case of emotions.
After posting my ramblings of discouragement yesterday, you all really pulled out the stops.
Thanks for having my back, y’all. I’m a chick, in case you didn’t know, and try as I might, I still can get all worked up and overwhelmed from all of the oh-no’s and what-if’s. It can bare down on me like a giant boulder on my shoulders and cause my mind to spin out of control.
Understandably so. I mean, gosh, I have cancer for one. Chemo treatments for another… on top of wanting to work and keep all of the things I’ve worked so hard to obtain. To see how little control I have over those things because of the C-Word is overwhelming, to say the least.
Yet, you all are there for me. You send me funny stuff. You stop by with soup, Sarah Hardy-Cooper, and assurances that if I lose everything, like a place to live, I can come crash at the ALF. I didn’t even think about that as an option. I’m thankful you said that. It made my blood pressure drop, even though I know logically that won’t need to happen. (It would be really fun though, not gonna lie.) I won’t be out on the streets. That is laughable.
For my friends who are willing to organize a fundraiser for me so I can make it for 6 months: I say go for it. This is what people do for others. There’s no shame in needing help. I’m not a free-loader, so I don’t need to be embarrassed.
For Tami Norcross, bringing me delicious Sup salad, soup and basketball conversation today at lunch: It really helped take my mind off of things.
For Toby Wiedenmayer: Your zen energy really helped to calm my spirit. I love it that I can call you friend and colleague.
For Wendy: Thanks for the tamales. Even though you scared the crap out of me. Teresa will be here this weekend and I need to have more than 2 left when she leaves.
For Devon, Lora, and my parents: You are keeping my head space in reality. Your encouragement to just breathe and not freak is what I need now. And really, I need it all the time.
And for all of you who have checked in with me: Keep it coming. I am only through the first round. This is a long haul, and I will need it more on the back end than on the front.
I feel loved. I feel encouraged. And I know that when I am on the other side of this crap, I will be able to do the same for others.