I had the most wonderful time this morning on the Reno Tahoe Tonight Show with Oliver Ex and all of our guests, especially Flash Jam. You know, once you have cancer and finally get your head wrapped around your own mortality and can start really living life, sometimes you just have to leave the mic behind and start shaking your booty to some live music in the studio.
It gave me a great burst of temporary energy and happiness… which rarely happens when I’m gettin’ poison pumped into my system. But it happened and I’m so grateful for it. I take those moments when I can get them. I have to expect them to happen and recognize it when it is happening… then I can participate and live in the moment.
After the show and getting a ride home, my alarm on my pump went off as I walked through the front door. It is always a welcomed sound because I know I can get unhooked and start concentrating on making it through a few days to the day where I feel good for about a week.
Then it starts all over again.
But today, when that alarm went off, I was more thrilled than usual.
I am officially through my halfway mark. Done with round 6 completely. Only 6 more to go.
It’s gone way faster in my mind than the last time I had chemo. I think it’s going quicker for several reasons: I know what to expect; I have such a wonderful network of support that I have gained because of my last experience from chemo with people who are helping; I’ve had time to do things that I love, like be with my kids more and do media stuff; and I am different than I was 2 years ago… I’ve grown to love myself more, to love and accept others more and I am confident in the purposes Life has given me to impact others.
So… halfway there. I can’t wait to see what’s in store for me at the end of this part of my journey.